I've been on a journey, and very quiet about it. I've been wondering to myself why that is. Truth is, I blog all the time in my own head. I love the conversation here in this space - with you!
This past week I got it. The silence is clear.
I was on retreat with my tribe of Peaceful Parent Coaches. We were asked to take ourselves back to the start of our journey, "what was it like before you decided to become a parent coach? What did it feel like at night when your head hit the pillow, how was your heart? What was on your mind? What questions were you asking.... and not finding the answers to? What did you hear in your home? Really....what was it like for you?"
I felt into this question, to really see it, and hear it.
Then she said, "imagine yourself traversing a bridge, this bridge is the journey you have been on, now on this side of the bridge - what does it feel like in your relationship with your child? What does it feel like to be you? What does it look like?"
I've been on a deep journey of transformation, and the words to describe the shifting, changing, and settling have been hard to come by. This is deeply personal, this transformation of my heart. It is the reflection of my own being that has shifted and changed. I'm not the same woman I was two years ago when I took that leap of faith, the first step to cross the bridge.
Did I know where I was headed, and how it would all look when I got here? No way. I didn't even know how to take the first step until it was done. I just knew in my heart that I owed it to myself to take that scary first step, to invest in myself. I knew that my boys came here to be mothered by me because they trusted I would bring my very best self to the job. They deserve the very best me!
I kept asking: how do I take the next step? Where are the funds to invest in my family, in me? How do I make the time? How do I trust that feeling in my gut is right? Show me how! I never closed the door. Looking back across that bridge...phew, words that fully express my gratitude are hard to conjure up.
Today I'm holding a really brave space for continued growth, expansion and transformation for myself, and so many others. Today, I'm inviting you, willing and brave souls, to fully embrace your next step, whatever that may be. Believe in you. Ask how....keep the door to your greatest potential open, and walk through it.
Today, I'm committing to sharing my journey with you, in this space. I am embracing authenticity, bravery and vulnerability in community, right here, right now!
With so much love,
Mariah